13days(:

you can't have me by your side forever. i'm no longer that small little girl in your arms anymore. i hate being so sheltered. i hate the me that you guys have taught me to be. what's wrong man. you know i nearly wanted to shout in your face. but i just didn't want to hurt you. people have to grow up. i'm already in uni. stop treating me like a sec sch kid.

everything and everywhere i want to go, you have something to say. smoking, drugs, drinking. you think singapore is the safest. you just don't know what people my age are doing. you don't understand what a good girl i am. everything i do behind your back. you will faint if i tell you.

i know it's hard to let go. i know it's hard to take in. but i'm ready to fly. i want to see the world for myself. if you don't want to give me the money, fine. i'll earn it myself. people chucker when they hear how much allowance i get. barely sufficient for a meal. whatever, i don't care. i earn it myself.

just stop holding me back.


only if you can support me instead of giving me shit.


only if you can understand this.





i don't need your sympathy. back to mugging. already one whole day wasted. me and my screwed up life.

my daddy's in hk now. i miss him horribly. and i wish i could be there with him.


and exams are coming! i'm rather screwed.


sometimes, it feels really good to be anti-social. haha. wads happening to me.


20days. (:
total randomness.




the more i know its impossibility, the more hope i throw in. i don't even know what i want. so much about bounded rationality. i can't even apply what i learn on myself, don't even talk about managing people.

31 days. (: YAY-ness. hahahaha.




and my lips are peeling like crazy. yucks.

i'm so so happy to get the term paper off my chest. finally. its done.


BUT,
things to do:
biz law tut
acct tut
econs tut
dsc ops management tut
mno zoe proj
dsc proj
acct proj

plus the uncountable number of tuts which i have backlogged and 3 presentations this week. 2 of them back to back. omg. i can't wait for the next 2 weeks to be over.

i'm feeling especially emo on mid autumn festival. a time of gathering.

maybe caz i've been listening to the hk radio alot recently. and i just got off the phone with my aunts in hk. mid autumn there is so diff from here.

yay. e-learning week. my hands are itchy for mahjong. and to you and you: no, i won't go clubbing in a long long time. i have my reasons. so don't ask again. but tutorials and term papers and projs fill my mind. no life. ):

econs and acct midterms tmr. great. 2 papers in a day, one after another.
urghhhh. i'd better not screw my first exams in uni.

i miss home horribly. 2 more months. i can't wait to see everybody again and esp my baby cousin whom i can only see via the webcam now. he has grown so so much since i saw him last year. i miss the people, the weather, the noise, the laughter, the nights we spend out. and most of all, the family.

but i hate how my hol plans are in a mess caz everything is so unconfirmed. rarr..

right. i shouldnt be thinking about all these. back to mugging.

The way to love is with all your heart.

cat.ma
26thdec90